"Let no corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear." Ephesians 4:29
My husband is one of the few people in my life that knows I have a running notebook and "notes" section on my phone of thoughts, prayers, ideas, and dreams. Journalling, I guess you could call it. Sometimes it's simply prayers. Other times it's "I wish I could say this out loud" AKA "I wish I could post this on Facebook." Ha. But, many times, I really do believe it is something the Lord laid on my heart at that moment. Mostly short phrases or a few sentences. Nothing blog "worthy."
Most days I run my thoughts by Anthony, asking him to make them more palatable. He usually listens and responds with a proud smile, or grabs my hand and says something like, "Wow, babe! That's really great. You should start a blog," or something totally undeserving on my end. He's great like that.
This year I have had the opportunity to share my heart with some beautiful young ladies at two different conferences. I have since emailed my notes to and corresponded with several of the girls regarding both! It's been a really amazing, eye-opening experience. The problem is, each time I'm about to click "send," I feel nervous and insecure all over again. Did I word everything correctly? Should I have phrased anything differently? Will this be accepted?
After a bit more prayer and another pep talk or two from my sweet husband, I've decided something. It's time to get over this mindset! This blog may end up being for nothing other than to help push me out of my comfort zone and expand my ability to better put my thoughts into words. And, if so, I'm content with that. But maybe, just maybe, it can help one or two young (or not so young) girls along the way, too.